Sigh! Couple of Steps Back…
(Putting paws over my eyes and have tiny tears…siiggghhh…)
So I’m not sure what happened and Dad and Mom have no idea. It started before the unmentionable NAIL DAY even.
For months I have been napping in my special bed on Mom’s office counter…it is in front of a lovely window and I have fresh air, hear outside birds and stuff and lots of sun puddles…remember this photo…
I was lookin’ over at Mom and channeling my thoughts to her for my blog. I took naps while she worked for me, and I did not even mind when she turned on the nasty noisy HP thingy-ma-bopper to print stuff. I just stayed right in my bed, never moved.
NOW, if I am in my bed and Mom or Dad even walk into the office, I hop outta my bed and leave. That’s it…don’t know why I do…and if I am napping when they come in and I wake and see them, yep…now you’re gettin’ it…I hop out and leave. I DON’T KNOW WHY???
The other regression goin’ on is about the family room TV watching at night. I even had pics on my blog of me sittin’ on the couch next to Mom, watchin’ TV with her and Dad. Siiggghhhh…sniff…teeny tears again…sorry…anyways, so now…I NEVER get on the couch with MOM…NEVER watch TV in the family room with them anymore…for the last maybe 4 weeks…and I DON’T KNOW WHY??? I miss my pets at night…
The absolute final paw was another fear I just learned I had…and it is AWFUL ‘cuz it is gettin’ toward really warm weather here and we have ceiling fans in most of our rooms so’s we don’t have to run the air con all night…nuff said about that. The BAD THING THAT HAPPENED…Mom turns on the ceiling fan in our bedroom ‘cuz she thinks it is really warm for me taking my nap on our bed (she wants me to be comfy–sweet, huh?)…and WHAMOOO…my head jerks up, I see the thingy moving over my heard, my eyes get humongous…and I flee as fast as all four paws can take me!!!
I stayed out of our bedroom one whole night…and I don’t nap in there during the day for 3 days now. Mom and Dad don’t turn the fan on anymore ‘cuz of my terror…but I stay in the living room in my cat tower. I just came back to bed last night…whew…I totally missed sleeping with Mom, and Dad too of course.
I even did a little exploring today…right after I left Mom’s office when she came in (I was napping in my window bed)…anyways, I left and found an empty square cardboard thingy in the hall…it was open so I checked it out…inside and out…
That’s about the only teensy weensy itsy bitsy brave thing I have done since the “fan” thing.
So I got scared in Mom’s office for some reason????? Then got scared of sitting on the family room couch with her for some reason???? And now the ceiling fans scare me?????
So we are working on it as a family…recovery takes time for us adult rescue cats…we have memories we can’t talk about…and our bodies remember stuff too…thanks for the listen furriends…send me paw prayers and paw hugs that I can overcome my fear in the office and family room at least. Happy Sunday and have a really good Earth Day.
Paw pats, Savannah 
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Hey Savannah, sad to hear about the backward steps. Wonder what it’s all about and hope you make some more forward steps – maybe you’ll forget about the old terrors then? =^..^=
we can’t figure what’s been going on with me…but I seem to be making some steps forward again…like going back to take my morning nap today in our bedroom…course the hated ceiling fan was not on!!
aaaaaaaaaaaw, don’t cry beautiful one. Give yourself some time. It’s ok to need some space every now and then.
You had to go through so much. It’s not easy to forget the pain and the abuse.
Just don’t forget you are loved now
thanks again Jay..or do U prefer Jazz? I am trying to be patient and so are Mom and Dad…but I promised to write an autobiographical blog and I have’ta tell it like it is…Oh Cat, recovery is tough!
Jay is my name. They call me Jazz Cat cause I really like Jazz music.
And yeah, traumatic experiences are the most difficult ones to forget. And yeah, more power to you for telling it like it is!
Don’t worry, I’m sure your mom and dad understand. I know they suffer with you but they understand
Savannah, I wonder if something outside scared you when you were in your special bed by the window. Maybe a big bird or even a person with bad manners. I’m glad you like being with Sibe. I’m sending you, Mom, and Dad lots of love and hugs.
oh thank you so much. We wonder that too.My window bed is second story, long way down…but I can hear street noise really good…maybe garbage truck woke me and I got startled? Anyway, thank you Paw pats, Savvy
It’s a long process Savannah and you should be proud of having come as far as you have – honestly, I’m twelve years old and was a feral kitten when taken to the shelter where my parents found me and even after all these years in a safe place with all the love and pets and treats I still am afraid of fans (like big birds!), noisy machines, thunder, etc. I’m just perpetually nervous. The main thing is that you might always have “good days” and “bad days” but you’ll forever have SAFE days thanks to your Mom and Dad’s love. Hang in there Savannah!
Kitty Hugs
Sammy
oohhh thanks so much Sammy. Using my paws to wipe my tears of gratitude for your support. I miss napping in Mom’s office while she works for me, but for some reason, I get anxious and leave. I so hope I get over it. Dad and Mom are really patient but worried I know. Paw Hugs Savannah
XXOOO – stay brave!
Kitty Hugs, Sam
your constant encouragement is really a comfort. thank you so much, Paw pats Savvy
aw, we are sorry to hear this kitteh, we hear all send gentle comporting husky wooos,
RA, Isis & Nanük
thanks…hard work recovery from being long time chased, hit, no pets, no playtime and no peeps warm touches…hard to move on…Dad and Mom are experienced but I know I am kind’a diff for them too…thanks so much for support…specially from Sibe…means lots paw pats Savannah
Awwww hang in there and let yourself trust your yourself and your family.
I try, really I do. Just all of a sudden for no reason I am pulling back into my shell. Mom and Dad are fretting pawfully…but they make sure I get my pets and brushing all day long no matter where I am.